Is it me? Have I done anything wrong? Why did you find another girl? How can you do this to me? Aren't you satisfied with me? Aren't you happy with me? Don't you love me?
I don't know what and how I feel. Is it anger? Bitterness? All I know is that a part of me STILL wants to be with you and a part of me WANTS to forget you. Maybe I am mad at you. Leaving me and acting as if nothing happened. You, holding hands with her and being with her. It really hurts. I don't know how to express it. I don't know what to do. All I know is that it's not me anymore. And I'm afraid. I'm afraid that I won't be able to feel this way with any other guys. I'm afraid that you don't love me and I still love you. Maybe these are just memories that I really miss. Or maybe I don't love you anymore. I'm in love with the memories, the moments I was with you. Maybe that's it. I just don't understand myself. Anger. Bitterness. And I'm blaming you. I knew it. I knew this would come. This always happens but not like this. You're not mine anymore. Or maybe you were never mine.
kaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat
