Oh my gaaaaaaad. I'm hyperventilating! haha :) Cee and I encoded the same schedule for our Filipino class next term :) kinikilig akoooooo! haha :) He texted me this morning :) And he said hi to me yesterday at the caf. And he makes faces whenever i catch him looking at me. haha :) Anyway, he told me that if ever ubos na yun slot na yun, he'll text me for another sched :) Yikeee! :) It's better sana kung sinabi niyang siya na mag-eencode ng subjects ko para pareho kame ng sched. ahaha :) joke lang. :P haaaaaaah! what a day! Kahapon rin. Goshie. he invited me to eat lunch kaya lang nag lunch na ako. Same thing today. He asked me if I had taken my lunch. Sayang. Naka-lunch na ako. Hmp. Tetext niya ko. Tetext niya ko. Tetext niya ko! :) ahahaha! :) Miss ko na siya ka-chat sa YM grabe. Dati kasi halos every night. He even edited my picture. haha :) Ginawan rin niya ako ng background for friendster eh. hehe :) Di ko pa ginagamit. Nyehe :P Ayun. :)
Think of love. lalalala :)
Friday na ulit bukas. Happy :) Punta kame ni Edjim sa bene to meet up with Kim and Rina :) Anyway, stressed nanaman ako kasi puro group works, projects, and presentations tapos dagdag pa yun term paper. Waaaaahhh :( Haaayyy... Sa Saturday may grand reunion yun Tolentino family. We have to go. :( I have to do my term paper kasi eeeeehhh... Hmmmp.
Labels: Ugly days
Ate is out of the hospital na! Yehey! I was the one who made bantay bantay to her last night. hehe :) I saw a cutie nurse sa reception. Hehe. I bought food kasi sa skyline... ayun. Hehe. He was talking to someone on the phone and he was looking at me! I was a bit freaked out coz he was STARING not LOOKING. Jayzus! ahahaha! Anyway, there will be plenty of reporting to do this week and next week. School worrrrrks! Stressed days stressed face. haaayy... There's a term paper to be passed pa on December 7. Then Bebe's debut on December 8! WAAAAAAW! :) I'm definitely going! Hmm... May Christmas tree na us. Ako nag-kabit ng lights. Gandaaaaaa. haha :)
I'm fecking confused. Grr.
I attended Di's debut last Saturday. It was fun. Grabe. There was this cute guy. He was wearing a black polo with 2 red streaks at his left chest and an orange circle patch on his right sleeve. Kilig! Our eyes met like 2 times? haha :) And then when my friends asked Di who that guy is, Di said he's taken BUT (take note of the but ah..) mali si Di. She thought my friends were pointing to another guy. Ayun. While I'm eating my Yakisoba in the cafe this morning, my friends suddenly blurted out that his name is Leandro and he is single! I was like, "Huh? Ano yun?" Sabi nila yun crush ko! LEANDRO. So traditional. So, so... So like a man! Ganda nuh? Grabeeeeeeeeeeee! Di said she's going to hook us up. (She has to!) Yiheeeee! Finally, I got myself a guy. No, no.. scratch that. He's not just a guy.. He is a god.. and I'm the goddess! Ahahaha!
Bookworm mode again. I had read 5 books last week. I'm reading Diamonds and Daisies by Bernadette Starchan. It is a pretty good novel. Nakaka-in love. haha :) Hmmm... Honga pala. I forgot to make kwento what happened to me in Bora. Well... I fell in love... with the 2 dogs! haha! They're so adorable! 2 Golden Retriever puppies. I will upload the pictures in my friendster and multiply maybe this weekend. Pretty busy kasi. I'm just waiting for my next class. Haaayyy... There. Is that enough for an update? ehehe :P
Is it me? Have I done anything wrong? Why did you find another girl? How can you do this to me? Aren't you satisfied with me? Aren't you happy with me? Don't you love me?
I don't know what and how I feel. Is it anger? Bitterness? All I know is that a part of me STILL wants to be with you and a part of me WANTS to forget you. Maybe I am mad at you. Leaving me and acting as if nothing happened. You, holding hands with her and being with her. It really hurts. I don't know how to express it. I don't know what to do. All I know is that it's not me anymore. And I'm afraid. I'm afraid that I won't be able to feel this way with any other guys. I'm afraid that you don't love me and I still love you. Maybe these are just memories that I really miss. Or maybe I don't love you anymore. I'm in love with the memories, the moments I was with you. Maybe that's it. I just don't understand myself. Anger. Bitterness. And I'm blaming you. I knew it. I knew this would come. This always happens but not like this. You're not mine anymore. Or maybe you were never mine.
